communication

I don't like to have a crowd around me.....well, this is not the right sentence to start with but....anyways, I like to be in contact with few people that I feel comfortable with.....but not always....sometimes I don't even take phone calls or don't feel like talking with them....try to call them when I am able to leave the message instead of talking with them...

it's not that I hate to be with people but certainly can't be with them at all the time.....hate to talk shit with the parlor lady.....don't like to go out shopping with other gals, I have to compromise with my plan....not that I usually has any....

May be I am aloner.....like to enjoy things with myself.....may be because at younger age I had girl friends who acted jealous because of all the attention I use to get....few times my so called friends stood me up....anyways,

Recently I joined couple of clubs and been to one's meeting.....Indians.....very noisy and loud meeting.....didn't even get to meet or got to know other gals....so what's the point? May be two- three gals with kids chatting and sharing things will work for me....

Lot of times I find myself opening email a/cs for no reason for many times during the day.....to tell the truth, everyday.....log in to orkut..... invisible....even if I see someone available I hardly chat....but do leave the scrap....I am not sure why I do this? Obviously I need to have some conversation......that's why I am writing this blog!!!......still can't take or should I say don't take initiative to speak with other people.....

Don't know how to end this article.....

Well...

I try to think about funny and crazy things happened to me that I want to write but when I start for some reason I can't think anything but people who hurt me in so many ways....friends, co-worker, family and so on...

Why is that? I don't wanna write about people and events which didn't make me happy or didn't make me laugh....rather they hurt me, many times deliberately...but still I can't forget them....I don't want you guys to read some boring story which might not make you laugh....What can I do to forget these shitty people and events in my life?

Just saying forget it doesn't work...does it? well....anyways...I will keep trying...